At last. I am booked to visit pb in the netherlands. I need a passport and I've never needed a passport. I am leaving this continent and I've never left this continent. I am so incredibly excited to be there and not be here.
However!
There is this really lame part of me that is so unbelieveably uneasy about leaving my comfort zone. I am thinking I will miss the last Michael Berlin film and it won't be the same without me and I will miss a couple of weeks of climbing but the paying doesn't stop and I will miss my cat like crazy and what if she doesn't remember me when I get home and I should be working not playing and I should just be right here where I always am because what if I miss something and now my credit card bill is once again out of control. But WHO CARES about those things! I'll be in the netherlands! Luckily that lame part of me does not stop me from experiencing at least some joys in life.
I can do this. I need to do this. I am.
However!
There is this really lame part of me that is so unbelieveably uneasy about leaving my comfort zone. I am thinking I will miss the last Michael Berlin film and it won't be the same without me and I will miss a couple of weeks of climbing but the paying doesn't stop and I will miss my cat like crazy and what if she doesn't remember me when I get home and I should be working not playing and I should just be right here where I always am because what if I miss something and now my credit card bill is once again out of control. But WHO CARES about those things! I'll be in the netherlands! Luckily that lame part of me does not stop me from experiencing at least some joys in life.
I can do this. I need to do this. I am.
3 comments:
Congrats!!! When are you going?
mp
don't dilly dally on the passport. it takes six-eight weeks to get it. you buy me something very cool okay? something in the jewelry area.
wanna know something weird? i always get really uneasy about travelling the day before i have to go. i always wush i didn't have to go anywhere and could just lay stay at home and watch tv. and then i'm always happy i resisted the temptation to call it off and did go see stuff.
[i thought it was my portuguese genes ... but if it's gene, they're in the SD pool too]
i'm soooo lokking forward to you being here! i'll do a careful time planning.
love,
p
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