I am sorry that I never knew you and I am sorry you knew me even less because I think you would have liked me. I am sorry that when I became old enough to take responsibility I didn't. I am sorry you do not know me and I am sorry that when I visited I did not try harder. I am sorry I let you ignore me for the most part and I am sorry I still do not write. I am sorry he was disinterested when I called and I cannot blame him for that even though we should be close. I am sorry she lost him and then her and I did not even call because I wouldn't know what to say. I am sorry that even though I am recognizing my faults I will not improve myself. I am sorry that he lost his mom and I wonder whether their last words were of love or of hate or of indifference and I am sorry I do not know where he is, how old he is or how this affects him. I am sorry I still think of him as a little boy because that is all I really knew. I am sorry that when they continue to hurt and change I will still be here just passively wondering. If ever I do call, I am sorry that I will have nothing to say and what I do say will not be good enough. If I do call, I am sorry if I cry, sometimes I cannot help it.
I am sorry.
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