Sunday, October 26, 2008

a gift

I walked in, very stressed.

"There are no secrets here."

Can I keep mine?

We recounted history, we got caught up on where it went,  we reviewed the goals.

They asked questions about the past. Things like when and for how long and what was it like and what did you feel and how often and how old. Some of them I was never going to answer. No matter how much time they gave me to think about it. I honestly did not know the answer. I was not even sure the answer existed.

Are they thinking it means something that I cannot stop fidgeting with these toys?

I said I thought he was wrong about things. A few things. As a result he has fears of abandonment. Or something like that.

Does he honestly want me to make that call? Right now?

I looked at him and he gave the nod. 

He said there was a bit of a break through. 

He was still uncertain.

I know why.

He said I was good at reading people so therefore, I am okay.

Or do I just make excuses for them?

He said I was good at reading people so therefore, I am okay.

I am okay.

He said, "why aren't you married?"

You seriously want me to answer that?

He said I would make a good mom.

I used to think I would make a good teacher.

He said the day when she showed that she could help it would all be okay. 

Just put down the damn toy.



2 comments:

Anonymous said...

he also said that he would definitely give you a letter of recomendation
that was a very good compliment

meli said...

have you been back?