After the continuous IV that I didn't want, the constant monitoring and machines I didn't want, the manual stimulation for cervical dilation, the manual breaking of the waters (with meconium),the narcotic, the pitocin, the epidural, the oxygen mask - all of which I didn't want... she said, you have a failed labor.
How can I fail at labor? I've been studying for months.
The next step was the c-section. I was already feeling very disappointed in the entire process. I never felt much supported by the staff or even the coaches with my desires to have an unmedicated labor and delivery. After the epidural, they were in much better moods and their relief was obvious. I was devastated. Then it proceeded to get worse. Despite the pain-free, pitocin-stimulated contractions, I had still made no progress for hours. They used their scare tactics and I agreed to the c-section. I knew the medical procedures well and I knew I had exhausted them all. Off for a spinal.
The surgery was very short and soon after the tugging began I heard a suction noise and then a small cry. At that point it all didn't much matter because I would still have her and at that point I knew the meconium wasn't a problem, the cord around her neck wasn't a problem and she was fine. Dad snapped some pictures and left with her to wait for me in the recovery room while I was stitched and stapled.
When I arrived she was stripped to her diaper and placed on my chest. Slowly she wiggled her way to her first meal.
2 comments:
What an ordeal! I am so glad she is here and that you are ok. I hope you are healing well! Love you so much and I am so proud and excited for you!
xoxo, mp
Melissa! Whew! That is a story. Sorry you had to go through all that, but in the end its all worth it, no. I hope you are enjoying each and everyday and getting as much sleep as you can. Love from MN
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